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Its hard to stay calm and be brave when someone you known all your life dies. Today a friend I’ve know for many years died of brain cancer. I try not to cry or to feel sad. I don’t know why but I just want to shut the whole incident out of my head. I feel fear and sadness…
I wish my hunnie was here to hug me and give me courage… Somehow I feel lately things seem different… Maybe because I ask too much and expect too much…
When I was a kid, I used to get bullied and the things I like most were always taken away from me to be given to other people. Sometimes if I am lucky I get to hold it for an hour or maybe more sometimes less… If I am unlucky I just get to see it and next its gone. I use to feel sad and cry after all what does a kid know… And when I cried I’ll be punished. So as time grew by I learn not to cry and I never did anymore for a long long time.
I don’t feel like writing anymore for now…………… So maybe I’ll continue or maybe I wont……………….
